One day...

What seemed a distant and impossible dream,
only months ago. Now so close. So near.
And I think how it almost never happened.
How I was there with you but could not speak.
How you were so close to touch but I dare not.
How I let the chances slip through my fingers.
Struggling with the "what if's" inside my head.
What if I talked to you and my heart was broken.
What if I never tried at all. How aweful to live
a lifetime with the regret of losing true love.
Then something happened. The voice of God perhaps?
A moment of clarity, of courage, a risk taken.
Light shone into the room from the door opened.
Love blossomed and grew, the future in our hands.
Without the risk taken, we would never be one,
but now we lay together holding each other,
One day apart...

Where you are...

F.R.I.D.A.Y.4.P.M

Well, it is finally Friday 4 pm
Working week is done, feeling happy
The sun shines softly, the wind blows nicely
And I got you

That would be more than enough for now...
Have a nice, lovely and peacefull evening

Hugs and kisses,
Closer to you, me

Thank God

Unspoken

Words so powerful so beautiful
But sometimes the most power
Is in the word not said

A touch, a kiss, a hug
A tickle, a smile, a sigh
A playful hit with a pillow

In each others thoughts
Both missing the other
Bonded strong together, always

Love in every thought of you
Love in every thought of me
Love the word unspoken

My Soul

My soul is mingled with Thee, dissolved in Thee
A soul to cherish as it has Thy perfume!

Each drop of blood of mine
Is saying to Thy dust,
'I am the colour for Your love,
Companion of Your affection

In this house of clay, my heart is desolate
Without Thee!
O Beloved, come into this house
Or else I'll be gone!'

Jalaluddin Rumi 1207~1273

Wonder Part 2

Love is a wonder I think
One side of a coin paired with pain
You are with me every moment
With my life frozen in time
I will always be waiting
Because you touched my heart
We are together but not one

Black Bird

My lady asked me the other day
"What is it with black bird and you?"
And I told her this. Black bird
is a messenger, a bringer of news
Dark silhouettes flit, fly and glide
and spread the word to distant land
To the little black bird in her hand

Black and White

I thought of you the other day, I don't know why
Two young boys on the first day of school, you and I
Sharing lunch on the playground and playing games
We were both shy and quiet and became best friends
Two small boys happy and full of future dreams
Two angels looking down from above, watching over us

Our friendship endured for all those years
Every day after school, weekends, birthdays, holidays
We were always together, we were like brothers
Inside myself I feel a hint of sadness within you
But we are just kids, still having fun and dreaming
We never payed mind to the angels above

My mind is jerked rudely, harshly to the future
The future that I thought would shine so bright for us
Surrounded by dark suits and sombre faces I stand
I look at your mother and tears rob me of my voice
For you are not there anymore, and will never be again
Sadness that you were not taken, but took your own hand

I stand distraught, trying to make sense. Emotions rage
Angry at your selfish act, guilty I never saw it coming
We had gone our separate ways to follow those dreams
But your dreams were not realized and that was too much
I now know you reached out to me in those last few weeks
But I did not realize because I was chasing my own dream

The news when I heard it hit me so fast and so hard
Speechless, cold as if all life had been sucked from me
The memory of two boys on the first day of school
So full of promise, now never to be fulfilled, even today
Still brings tears to my eye, because we were brothers, with
Two angels looking down above us, one black and one white

Wonder

Love is a wonder I think
We have hugged countless times
Your first kiss took my breath away
Each night I hold you tight
And you drift to sleep in my arms
But we have never touched
We are one but not together

Running in Time

I put on my singlet, shorts and shoes and step from the house
I put on my music and step onto the road
Slowly I start, awkward, stiff, short of breath, ache and pain
I push myself... ignoring the whispers telling me to stop

Along streets and roads I run, through park and by river and sea
My focus on the path ahead of me, head down watching each step
And after a while I lift my gaze to the horizon and the setting sun
And I watch the world and people around me as I pass quietly by

And then without knowing or realising everything falls into place
Footfalls find a rhythm, my breathing follows suit
The aches and pains fade away as my body finds its way
In time, in sync, in flow... the motion brings everything together

And when I'm there my mind is clear of worry or pain
The world is simple and clear, no grey or in-between
I think of you, the possibilities of our world and my inspiration flows
For running is my meditation and it showed me the way to you

Satu Saja

A journey starts with one step
A relationship starts with one word
A life starts with one kiss
Without one there is only regret
Such is the power of satu saja